Muir

I also lost Mother 04/17/16 so I'm also tryin got figure out why I don't cry and also whats to be expected in the coming months/years.  

I found this on The Open to Hope Wesite http://www.opentohope.com/

They say when you lose mother you somehow lose your childhood and if you've lost both parents you feel like an orphan no matter what age they were when you lost them.