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Thank you Shari, that is a good quote to share. 

Thank you for your kindness and support MartyT, kayc, sharirouse, seachelle

I have tried therapy in the past but haven't found it helpful. 

Thanks again 

On 8/27/2016 at 7:47 PM, Amy Wamy said:

Hi Ella!

Welcome! I'm guessing you've seen my post above yours? I was 15 when I lost mine - I'm 23 now! And guessing from how you spell Mum, you're from the UK too? Hope you find some comfort here! :-) x

 

Hey Amy. Yep, I'm from the South West :-) I'm really sorry that you lost your Mum at a young age too, it's so hard. I am glad to meet other young women who lost their Mum's when they were kids too, as I don't know anyone in real life my age who has. xoxo

Edit: MartyT thank you for adding this list! I will take a look at the links xo

My name is Ella, I'm 21 and lost my Mum at 16. xxx

My Mom passed almost five years ago of Cancer when I was 16. She was ill since I was 12. was an incredible Mom, I am so proud and grateful that she was mine. Since her passing, I have felt an overwhelming amount of guilt as I wasn't there for her when she was dying. I was so afraid - I hid in my room on the computer. In a sense, I still do. I experienced deep, overwhelming depression and agoraphobia. It spiralled out of control. Every time I get a job, for example, I become deeply depressed and spiral into suicidal thoughts and actions. I do not know how to stop this. 

Since my Mom's passing, I have continually dropped out of schools, jobs and relationships. I struggle with keeping my word and struggle to accept myself.

A few days ago my Dad told me he is at breaking point and struggles supporting me as an adult. It is not fair to him.

In a few weeks, I am starting school again. I really do not want to fail and drop out this time - I want to succeed.

Please help me