CherylMc

My dad is on hospice right now with terminal liver cancer.  My mom had hip surgery and is in a rehab facility.  They are actually together because the rehab is in a nursing home, so my dad can have hospice provided there.  Since my dad won't be able to go home, my mom will unlikely be going home either.  Although only my dad is terminal, I feel like I'm losing them both.  Anticipatory grief is just consuming me.  I feel as though I should be doing more, but can't realistically or mentally. I'm overwhelmed with sadness, guilt, anxiety, worry.  I find it hard to have hope or joy in anything.  I was already depressed before all this, as I had to put two of our dogs to sleep over the last three months.  It's been one thing after another.  I've questioning every decision I've made recently about everything.  So, now I don't know if I'm making the right decisions about my parents.