musicluvr1991

Thanks Marty, i really appreciate your words and advice i've actually thought of potentially going to a counselor, maybe i'll look into it

So i've been having this weird mental tug-of-war with myself for a while: there's a part of me that's like 'you're being stupid, you shouldn't still be feeling this way after nearly 3 years, get over yourself' and then there's the more logical part of me that's like 'well of course you're having a hard time, it's an incredibly horrible difficult situation to have to deal with, you lost someone important to you way too young' and i kinda feel silly even talking about it after this long
 

So as of today, it's been a year since my friend Josh died such a weird feeling..it still feels really surreal to think he's gone there's been so many little things popping up that really make me miss him and it's been a tough year but i'm so lucky to have such a great group of friends and very supportive parents, which has really helped a lot

thanks very much I'm working on forgiving myself, but i know it's gonna take time. I'm very lucky to have a great group of friends and very supportive parents, so that's really helped a lot  I've also been writing and listening to music too  

Thank you very much i'm actually thinking of getting a memorial tattoo for him sometime soon. I'm sorry about your friend and your daughter's friend, you're right, it's really hard when you lose someone too young :'(

It's been just over 3 months since a good friend of mine died unexpectedly and i've been having a really hard time. I've been feeling really guilty and regretting not spending more time with him. It wasn't that i didn't want to, of course, but it still kinda makes me feel like a bad friend. There's a part of me that knows that's stupid and illogical, but i just can't help it. And i just can't help thinking about how unfair it is, he was only 25, he had so much left to do, and it makes me really sad to think of all the things he'll never get to experience. This is the first time i've ever lost someone my own age, and i have to admit, it's really done a number on my mind