Hi, I am new to this group and the "anxiety and can't function" caught my eye. I lost my husband of 26 years unexpectedly on 1-13-17. Kissed him bye that morning never saw him alive again. I also lost my brother after a short illness on 9-29-16. In my wildest dreams I would have never been expecting this to happen. He was 54 years old and had a heart attack. I seem to be struggling more now than when it 1st happened. I can't have a conversation or order at a drive thru without trembling and crying. Every song I hear, every family I see I am a strong woman but this has taken me down hard. I have to continue to work, the job I have is very streetlight and I am in a position of authority so I have to "play like" I'm getting better for fear of getting fired. If they think I'm weak they will replace me. I'm a mess. I am afraid at night and can't sleep. I have gone to dr but what he prescribed doesn't help with my sleep. I can't express to my daughter how I am honestly I don't want to worry her and she is suffering also and has her own child and husband to take care of. I am starting a grief group at church next week and am hoping it helps. I pray daily for the strength to cope and basically get myself together.
Anxiety and can't function
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Hi, I am new to this group and the "anxiety and can't function" caught my eye. I lost my husband of 26 years unexpectedly on 1-13-17. Kissed him bye that morning never saw him alive again. I also lost my brother after a short illness on 9-29-16. In my wildest dreams I would have never been expecting this to happen. He was 54 years old and had a heart attack. I seem to be struggling more now than when it 1st happened. I can't have a conversation or order at a drive thru without trembling and crying. Every song I hear, every family I see I am a strong woman but this has taken me down hard. I have to continue to work, the job I have is very streetlight and I am in a position of authority so I have to "play like" I'm getting better for fear of getting fired. If they think I'm weak they will replace me. I'm a mess. I am afraid at night and can't sleep. I have gone to dr but what he prescribed doesn't help with my sleep. I can't express to my daughter how I am honestly I don't want to worry her and she is suffering also and has her own child and husband to take care of. I am starting a grief group at church next week and am hoping it helps. I pray daily for the strength to cope and basically get myself together.