Dixiebum

So sorry to hear of your baby i lost my boy of 13 gears 4 weeks today he was my soulmate my best friend and im lost in pain and hurting your not alone in your suffering and i send you love and hugs x

4 weeks today the pain remains raw and intense i miss him desperately i smile on the outside continue everyday life its just all feels heavy and tainted 

Friends and family dont know or maybe choose to ignore thinking its for the best my suffering its just draining 

Xxx

Heres my king with his little shadow lulu just look at that face he was so gentle so special so loved xx

On 26/03/2018 at 4:23 PM, magics said:

thank you KayC and to Dixiebum I can't seem to shake this pain in my heart. I am already not so well with my health. I miss my boy like crazy as he was not only my best friend he was my soulmate now he is my Dog Angel. So is yours. I never want to go through this again this way. My Daddy passed here in my house in 2013 that was hard enough but I knew he was suffering too and he went peacefully in his sleep. My Magic was eating something when she gave him his first shot and then the 2nd and third I will never forget the image - I am so bothered by it. Maybe I will go to grief counselor for pets. He was my second son. I feel all alone now. I don't want to cry with anyone they do not know my heart and hurting right now. Please reach out to me. I am here for you. You are right that love is special beyond compare. Mona 

Aww magics i feel for you the pain sense of loss and guilt is unbearable its 19 days since my lad grew his wings i still cry everyday wakeup hoping its a dream but no

I will miss him and love him forever as will you but im realising for me i had to make the ultimate decision out of love for him not to suffer i had too and boy i am

Its still raw but im able to look at his pics now  and speak his name without being hysterical its a slow process and i wish you well the love we have lost was special dont ever think i will find it again but im s

Aww magics i feel for you the pain sense of loss and guilt is unbearable its 19 days since my lad grew his wings i still cry everyday wakeup hoping its a dream but no

I will miss him and love him forever as will you but im realising for me i had to make the ultimate decision out of love for him not to suffer i had too and boy i am

Its still raw but im able to look at his pics now  and speak his name without being hysterical its a slow process and i wish you well the love we have lost was special dont ever think i will find it again but im so lucky to have ever had it xx

Thankyou i would of done absolutely anything for him and have to accept the ultimate act of love was to end his suffering im hoping time will do this 

Mothers day was hard yesterday i think of him 24/7 feel guilty to eat of sleep its just so tough xx

Thankyou thankyou thankyou my grieving is normal this pain that cripples is out of love because boy did i love my Dixie i believe more than anyone in this world 

The ifs buts whys torment me why did i go on holiday how could my proud athletic boy deterioate so quick should i of tried harder before pts ???? These are things i will have to find peace with

I plan to speak to the vet see if she can ease some of it 

I am indebted for your replys xxx

Thankyou so much for your reply i feel like only fellow animal lovers understand and i need their reassurance at this moment 

I have no one who fully understands he was and is my baby i will grieve for him forever this pain is unbearable i am looking for answers and questioning did i do enough ? Im just heartbroken x

I feel your pain ive just lost my soulmate bestfriend and constant companion in similar circumstances sunday lethargic to wednesday and gone had to be pts (suspected brain tumour)

I hope your and my pain dulls and we can both learn to live with our memories xx

I had to make the heartbreaking decision yo put my 13yo staff to sleep just a few days after he fell unwell from being his normal bouncy self and im overwhelmed with guilt and heartache its a physical pain that no pills will help 

I was on holiday the previous week he stayed home with my son on the sunday he was slow getting up and didnt eat much same the monday i arrived home and he came to great me with less enthusiam than normal i gave him steak water and painrelief incase his joints were aching and took him the vets first thing tues morning . He was kept for the day had bloods urinalysis fluids and an ultrasound some of his bloods were off but not drastic and there was free fluid in his abdomen again not much some blood in urine i brought him home with abs and tramadol to return friday 

However his condition worsened significantly and he began fitting she made a home visit and he was very poorly so we decided pts ( she suspected brain tumour but i guess we will never know now)   i am devastated beyond words not eating not sleeping riddled with guilt iwas on holiday could i have done more etc etc

I had him cremated but cant look at the casket my majestic soul mate companion best friend it doesnt feel right how could he go that quick ? Im really in a dark place with it all has anyone else felt this down dark and empty when will ( if ever) will i be able to cope ?? Please help