billyanne

It is so nice to hear from people. I also put on this brave face and people must think I am doing so well. I just want to shout at them and say "YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW I AM FEELING". I have wonderful friends but I do not feel as though I can talk to them about my real grief and Ican not afford to go to counciling.

I speak to my mother in law once a week, but even then it is to reasure her I am keeping busy. We do not talk of our pain. And I do not talk to the other members of my husbands family very much.

I sit and think of my life with Bill and the things we did and sometimes it feels as though it were all a dream. It is a horrible feeling I feel as though me being with someone for 14 years was just a dream.

Does anyone else feel like this. I do not like it.

Anne

Hello Fred,

I love that quote. I am going to print it up and frame it and put it on my wall with my Billy's pictures. I hate the fact we are all going through this. I just feel as though I am waiting and exsisting. For what I do not know. It is weird how the world seems so pointless now. Anyway thank you for replying to my question

Hi H.A.B

Thanks for responding. I also had my husbands ring sized down and then soldered to mine. I did not think contacting a web site would be helpful, but just getting your response was good. I feel so close to my husband and I just want people to respect the fact that I am not single, I am a widow and I am still with my husband even though he is not with me physically. I know I will probably have to pull a few people up when they forget this.

Hi I am new to this site. My husband died in a car accident on September 6th 2004. I was with him and was not hurt, he died quickly. I loved being married to him, and was proud to be a Mrs. I would like to know if the people out there who have lossed thier spouse still consider themselves married. And for the woman, do you still expect to be called Mrs. You see I do. I feel like I am still married and am insulted to be thought of as anything else. I feel as though I have the right to always be considered married. Please let me know how you all feel. or respond to people.