May 27,2016 I got a phone call from my brother saying my older and only sister was gone. It's not fair she was 48. My sister and I loved each other but from a distance. We had very little in common. There was several years between our ages which made our opinions and ideas very different. Most of our very small family had no idea she even had health issues. She went to bed on the 26th never to wake from a massive heart attack. I'm feeling so quilty for things I should have done and said. I'm playing the what if game. It's getting very close to the first anniversary without her. Please if anyone can help or give me ideas of how to move forward please I couldn't thank you enough.