HH... I certainly have not seen anything like that here at Marty's forum. I remember the first night I started posting here a few weeks after Tammy died, I hated my new life. Felt like I didn't want to live. Was overwhelmed by guilt and was absolutely devastated. Members here tried to tell me that in time, things would get better. At the time, I couldn't imagine or see that.  But I listened to what they said and it gave me a measure of hope. No immediate relief of course but I knew these pe