His PSTD was from his year in Iraq. I went to his house yesterday ,my friend went with me<I thought that it would be easy, how wrong Iwas It was like reality hit and he is never going to be there again I slept me two hours and my eyes wont close again. there is so much to take care of. No one will ever convince me he was not as much a causulty of war as the soldiers still there. There is this big whole that I dont know how to fill.