Septemer 21, 2009 changed my life forever. I got a call that my 44yr old ex husband had been found dead in bed. Our marriage had been over for almost 20yrs but my Love for him was still there. He was my first true Love and the Love of my life. I do Love my current husband, but it is still not the same as with the father of my children. I left after our youngest was 2 months old. We really never got along after that mostly bickering over childsuppor and visitation. He never really put much effort in seeing the children. When he did it was only hurt for them because it maybe years before he would call again. He had changed his life and started a new one. Many times he would tell me how much he stilled loved me. But we were already commited to others and I didn't want to get hurt again. Now he is gone and I am having a flood of emotions that I can't really express with my spouse. I would have went back to him had it not been for the other people in our lives. My heart is broken, any dream of us sharing our children and grandchildren one day are all gone. Help I need some kind of support. Nanaboles
