My father just died on the 13th of March. I am an only child and am 36 (he was 59). It was pretty unexpected (even though he had chronic health problems, we didn't think they were fatal). My mom is in a nursing home and is pretty bad off from a brain tumor. (She cannot move - has to be fed and wears diapers, etc.) I so hate to sound like a victim, but this hurts so bad I cannot stand it. I'm single, which has never bothered me until now. My daddy was my rock and I just feel so cheated. I've cried enough to fill up a river, yet it doesn't seem to bring relief. Any ideas on how to get through the day? I know in my head and heart that he is in a better place, but me being selfish - I want him here, darn it!