I have not had much of a relationship with my biological father who was in and out of my life and while my mother was married to him, he gave us a lot of heartache and tears. I felt that he wasnt very interested in me or my life and preferred to move on, after the divorce with his kids from his second marriage. He has just passed away and i feel so surprisingly devastated. i feel remorse for all the years that we lost together even though i know that we never quite bonded or had that fatherly-daughter connection. His funeral is 1000km away tomorrow and i am torn on whether i should go. his side of the family seem to have all forgotten me as well. they did not even let me know that he was dying in hospital and i am very angry about that too. I really wish that i could have gone to see him before he died. Now i do not know if i should see them at the funeral. Am i going for them, myself or my deceased father ?(who seemed to have forgotten me) what is the right thing to do?
