lucyred

I finally went to the Dr. and got some short term sleeping pills to help out at night. Then my Mother-In-Law, whom I take care of, went into the hosp. in critical condition. When it rains it pours, if you know what I mean. I have spent the last two days in the hosp with her, but woke up with a sore throat this morning and didn't think it would be appreciated if I took that to her. Oh well, maybe it's my body's way of getting me away from there for a little while. She is improving, so at least it doesn't look like she will be # 3 in 3 months time, as far as deaths of close relatives. I am her caregiver, and we are very close, so it would probably put me over the edge, if you know what I mean!!. Thanks for all your support. It's nice to know that there are people out there, perfect strangers, who are willing and able to help out and be a "shoulder" figuratively speaking. Hopefully soon I will be at the stage when I can reach out to help too.

Thank you all so much for your shared sympathy and pain. I know that things will get better, but sometimes it is just too much to bear. Yesterday was the 1 month mark of Daddy's death, and most of the time I am alright. Then for no reason at all I'll have another panic attack. I am afraid I'll have one driving down the road or something. I never know when one will come. I had them a few years ago, and went on meds for them, but I got addicted to the meds, and really don't want to go through that again. Withdrawells were horrible. The Dr. just cut me off, cold-turkey. I know now that that was the wrong way to quit them and wouldn't let a Dr. do that again, but still, I am afraid to get hooked on them again. My hubby is home now, but he is depressed about financial problems and is no help to me. When he gets down, I get another attack. I have an appt. with a dr. in the morning. Maybe I'll get some help. Lucinda

Hi, I am new to this site. I just got desperate for some help. I think I'm going crazy. It does'nt make sense because I have lost loved ones before, but I'm really having a meltdown over the death of my Father. I have known for some time that he was dying, so it doesn't make much sense that I am having such a hard time of it. Is it normal to have panic attacks over the death of your father when you are 51 years old yourself? I would love to just crawl into bed , bury my head and not come out for 24 hours, but I am alone to take care of my ailing mother-in-law, and have no time to greive. My husband had to go out of town to help out a family member on his side of the family, so I have no-one except two kids and a mother-in-law that expect me to care for them. How do I get through this without losing my sanity completely?