sodcdancer

my bestfriend Jamel had died on October 13th 2008. i considered that boy like my lil brother . i loved him like family . we would always joke around and he would always be with me. but one day in school we were joking around and he said something that made me mad at him. i said to him i hate you and not to talk to me. i walked away from him. but later that night i got a phone call. saying "Jamel ust drowned". i'll never forget those words. i thought everyone was pulling a prank on me, but next thing on the news was Jamel. the next day in school, all his close friends were in the library crying. my other friend Dustin blams himself. but the part i regrt was saying i hate you . i cant get over it and i want to take it back . i cant tho cause hes gone . i need help please someone giv me some kind of advice t help me out. i would really appreciate it. thank you .

thank you for the help tho i appreciate it alot. and yes maybe i can find a better place to go to then.

hello there .

yes i have tried to talk to consulers around my area and when i do it just makes me have flashbacks to the two days that it had happened and they always tell me to move on and forget about it .

but thank youu . (:

i lost my stepmom from th doctor hitting a vein in surgery and my grandmother from cancer .

when i was 12 my step mom had went into surgery, and she was on outpaient. and started throwing up blood. i wanted to call my dad but she told me not to and everything was going to be ok. but i shouldn't have listened to her. at 11:30 that night she was pronouced dead. four months later my grandma had died from terminal cancer. those were the only two mother figures i had in my life and they both died . and now people will be so ignorant and make fun of me because i don't have a mother that wants to be there for me. and it really hurts me and i don't know what to do anymore i just hit things and people, and i yell and scream at the top of my lungs when i get mad now . i don't know what to do. please help me. (:

People say such mean things. My best friend drowned and even people who know me seem to say things that make me think of her or make me sad. Last year about 1 month after my best friend drowned my teacher used the expression "you'll drown in the water". I cried for probably an hour thinking of her and how she acctually did drown. Also I hate the song my happy ending, by avril lavigne, because she didnt have a happy ending, she suffered. At a school dance one of the people in my grade requested to play that song even though she knew i hated it. My other good friend and i spent almost the whole dance in tears because of the song and because our friend wasnt there. I cry alot when people say things like that and they say and do these things alot because they never think to watch what they are saying.

R.I.P Elizabeth

i know exactly how you feel . my bestfriend drowned in water too . he was only 12 . and i cried for the same amount of time that you did . trust me i understand . it was two years ago for me. and i still can't get over it . and i hate it . i miss him so much . and about the whole song thingg , at homecoming, they played wake me up when september nds by green day and that was me and his favorite song to listen you with our friends. and i cried so muchh. people say ignrant things. its badd. you just have to try to ignore them and move on and thats really hard to do .