I am wandering aimlessly through the house. I feel lost. My wife passed on the 29th of April after a year and 4 month battle with ovarian cancer. She was only 54 years old. She tried so hard to recover but it took over her bones and the pain was horrible. Through her fight she never complained, she did everything she was told and worked through chemo, radiation, and every torture known to mankind to try to live a few more years. I have never felt this way about any other human on the face of the earth. My heart is literally aching. I am sick of hearing the typical remarks about how she is not suffering anymore and she is in a better place. I want her here with me where she belongs. I know that is not in God's plan but in mine. I know I am full of anger and resentment right now, the thing that angers me most is not the fact that He took her but how she was tortured before she was allowed to leave. I am seeking counseling right now, and I hope this is not offensive to this forum. I know there are a lot of people out there and I am not alone but it sure feels like it right now.
Hi bill, this is my first post just registered after reading a few posts. I lost my beloved husband on may 18 which is the very day of your original post. still raw and have a very long lonely road ahead but I think it will help to share with you and others going through the same thing. June 21 would have been our 30 year wedding anniversary. we were soulmates and shared everything. So lost now and am crying as I type this. We had so many wonderful years together and I feel blessed to have had those years but also feel robbed of any hope of true happiness in the future. my husband was such a kind, generous, and compassionate man whom I loved with all my heart. My children, parents, friends have been wonderful but the one who was always been there for me is gone and all I can think is what am I supposed to do now?
I Am Lost
in Loss of a Spouse, Partner, or Significant Other
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Hi bill, this is my first post just registered after reading a few posts. I lost my beloved husband on may 18 which is the very day of your original post. still raw and have a very long lonely road ahead but I think it will help to share with you and others going through the same thing. June 21 would have been our 30 year wedding anniversary. we were soulmates and shared everything. So lost now and am crying as I type this. We had so many wonderful years together and I feel blessed to have had those years but also feel robbed of any hope of true happiness in the future. my husband was such a kind, generous, and compassionate man whom I loved with all my heart. My children, parents, friends have been wonderful but the one who was always been there for me is gone and all I can think is what am I supposed to do now?