My Mom passed away December 4,2009. She had a heart attack and we honestly thought she would be able to pull through it but I guess it wasn't meant to be. She was fairly young when she passed and I feel like all of those years that I was supposed to spend with her were taken away from me. I am still having an extremely tough time dealing with her death and every time I look around I see things that remind me of my mom. It hurts and it seems like the tears will never stop. I just don't understand why she was called home while she is still needed here.It is like the pain of missing her wont ever go away or ever dull any. It is like I am stuck and nothing can get me unstuck. I miss my mom more than anything in this world and it still does not feel right that she is truly isn't here with me anymore
I empathize with your pain. For me it is all the "bad" things I never got to earn forgiveness for, even though my Mother always forgave unconditionally, I still feel that I haven't paid Her, Dad (deceased 1966, and Both brothers a year after Dad. Now that Mom is gone, I feel completely lost and without direction. I don't trust my judgement, for I know I will not see the real consequences of my action, so I am withdrawn away from people and even friends. I wish I had your strength, though.
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I empathize with your pain. For me it is all the "bad" things I never got to earn forgiveness for, even though my Mother always forgave unconditionally, I still feel that I haven't paid Her, Dad (deceased 1966, and Both brothers a year after Dad. Now that Mom is gone, I feel completely lost and without direction. I don't trust my judgement, for I know I will not see the real consequences of my action, so I am withdrawn away from people and even friends. I wish I had your strength, though.