suzzer

I am sorry for your loss. It doesn't matter if you love someone for 30 years or one year. When you find that special person your heart is filled with such happiness even when theres struggles. And then one day their gone. The pain and loss hurts so much. I am still a newbee at this site and the people here are so suporting even through their hearts are hurting too. So hang-in and chat....

Gee You are all great. Thanks for the support and pat on the back. I was a little scared of this site at first because all I did was cry harder after reading everyones storys. I guess we are in a club that none of us asked to be in. But I feel blessed that I have found you all. It will be 8 weeks tomorrow and I am going to my first group meeting. Also I am going back to library to order more books. I am a little scared of my feelings this coming Saturday because it will (would of been) her birthday.

Thanks again for your support. Also to all of you in this club just take "baby steps"......

Carol Ann

Thank you so much for your post. I will try to look forward and be hopefull. Suzzer

Thanks for your replys. I had such a bad night and worse morning that I felt very hopeless. After posting my post I went for a 4 mile hike and ate a meal so I am feeling better. Its just so hard as you guys know. The roller coaster that I am on, sure has big dips.

Hi All

I join this site last week and was so happy to find people that are having the same feelings as I am. But I feel so sad for everybody. Every comment I read its hits me so close to home I feel all these same feelings. I am so empty. Everyone says it takes time but I can't seem to see any light at the end of this road. I have read books, prayed and I start a group next week. But after 22 years of having a nice life and then its gone, it is so hard for me.

On Aug 27 we will told she had a brain tumor and had 6-8 weeks. On Oct 19th she was gone and my life has crashed down on me. There's friends around but not really. You all are so great but I can feel your pain and I just cry harder.

I feel so hopeless... I am a fixer and I can't seem to fix me and I want to fix all of you too. How did this all happen? I am so down. What I would give for just one more hug. Her Birthday is next week and then Christmas and on the 27th it would of been our Anniversary.

I just need to hear a happy story about someone that came through this hell that we are going through.

Suzzer

Thats a great Idea. Thanks so much for sharing. I have had such lows and her Birthday is next week. I will bring flowers home for her. It will also be 2 months without hugs. thanks again.

Hello Everyone

This is my first time on this site and I am so glad to find people that are feeling the same way. And that I am not totally crazy. My Partner has been gone for 7 weeks today and after 23 years together I am so alone. I can't seem to stop crying or I walk around the house in circles. December was our month birthdays and Anniversay. I don't think I can celebrate Christmas this year. My family wants be to come for a visit. What advise can any of you give? I think I should just stay home alone. |No one seems to understand how empty I feel.

I wish you all sweet dreams.

Suzzer