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Yes. It is horrible to think that she was left so helpless and in a position where she could fall and hurt herself. The loss you have endured because of this is unspeakable! I cannot imagine that one ever can heal completely from this and both my husbands and my heart just breaks for you. Waiting for the autopsy report must be so very hard now too. I pray you have more answers when this is complete. Because of our journey through this one of the medical experts spoke to us and told us that bumps and bruising on the outside of the head may not show from falls like this because the veins within the skull are more spread apart in a baby. There are more areas without veins. You should be able to see evidence of impact from the autopsy though. The swelling causes more veins to rupture and more bleeding. I don't know your situation, but I know as a mom I wanted to know just what had happened to my baby as tough as it was to search out the information and doctors to help find the answers for me. I can just say I pray God help you have the strength to get through this and give you comfort through this terrible time. God Bless You.

I just saw your post and had to write. You see my husband and I have experienced something so similar to what you are currently suffering with right now. There are no words to bring comfort to your loss and I am so sorry you are feeling this pain. One piece of advice or information I wanted to give you is about the shaken baby verdict from the hospital. You write that a caregiver you trusted and who you thought loved your kids had done this terrible thing to your little love, but that she says your child fell off the couch. I found a website that contains so much medical information on shaken baby and one of the things is that the articles there show that a fall off a couch can have the same symptoms as shaken baby. I wanted to write because on top of your grief you are also dealing with betrayed trust. It might be that she is telling the truth about the fall so please see the link just in case. This information still does not erase the horrible suffering and heartbreak - believe me I know, but it may at least provide some answers. Knowing the truth behind what happened to ones child does help as we attempt to heal, though nothing can fill that void in your heart. http://medicalmisdiagnosisresearch.wordpress.com/2010/09/29/child-atd-reconstruction-of-a-fatal-pediatric-fall/ I hope this helps a bit. You might write the administrator of the link above for more help.