Dear Melina, I'm feeling alittle lost this evening as I find myself here many other evenings, and I took a moment to pull up this wonderful website, that I too write. I lost my husband of 37yr in 2009, also have 5 grown daughters who no longer live w/me.My youngest one left me w/ her 2 cats, Boo & Nathaniel ( I don't even like cats?). I just wanted you to know that I understand all the pain and still try so desparately to make some sense out of all this, hoping to find a happy ending. If your marriage was a good one, since alot of them are not, what people lose sight of is, you & your husband were not only married w/children but were friends. Your very best friend in the whole wide world that you may never see again.So I tell myself in the privacy of my room, to think about how lucky we were to have had a love like this. As times goes by I continue to see all the value in a good & rich life I shared w/Paul. You see it's the memories shared that will be mine forever, and if no one else remembers, I sure as heck do. If I had to do this all over again I wouldn't change a thing. I'm smarter stronger wiser and capable of being mom and dad to my daughters. Thank God all 5 of them had a chance to know him in there lives. He was a wonderful father & friend and as long as I continue to love his memory and keep him close in my heart I get comfort from this. I also have 5 grandchildren, only 2 met grandpa.The #5 grandchild is a boy and we named him after grandpa, Paul. As I learn to incorporate my life w/him and emember all the conversations we had , from the beginning to the last moment, I'm confident I can do this in honor of our life together. Yes it takes time, like everything else in life, it's a process. I tell my daughters al the time to "make today better than yesterday, take alot of pictures of the kids, cause you're making memories. Make them good, make them worth something"God bless you sweetie, take care!