sunshine

I am so sorry for your loss!! That really is a shocking outcome from a fall. I'm sure no one saw that coming. I'm pretty new here also. I don't always know what to say. I'm glad you have your faith and your church ladies to share with. As you lost your best friend I too have lost my best friend. You your husband and I my Mom. We may both be feeling alittle different but we are still grieving just the same! Nobody understands what we feel! It is our loss, our loved one, and no one can tell you the right or wrong way to grieve. Sharing does help!!! I will pray for you that the Lord will give you strength!! God Bless!!!

Your kidding!!! I collect bears too!! they are nice to snuggle with. I have a huge bear my Mother in law gave me for christmas a few years ago. My daughter has a huge dog. She calls him Stevie!!! I also have a blanket that was my Mom's that I like to snuggle with. It makes me feel like shes giving me a hug everytime I wrap it around me. You know my Mom and Her sister used to like to sing together. Mostly christian sings. You picture of your furry little stuffed dog is really cute! Where did you get him from? I definetly like the glasses. Does he have a name? It's funny how little things can comfort us! If you want to talk some more write me back. Hugs and prayers go out to you and your family!!!

Wow keyboardplayer It's been a rough year!! I'm so sorry for your loss! My children were very close to their Grandmother. They too didn't have a father in the picture either. We lived with Gram for 8 years. So I do understand your grief. It stinks that people come and go from our lives. But what beautiful memories the leave behind!!! Think of just that! There are somethings people or God can take from us. But I feel there is always a reason!! We will always have good memories!! I'm sure Granny is in a better place. Where there is no more suffering. Maybe my Mom will meet her in heaven. My Mom would be proud of me reaching out to you during this difficult time. Hugs and prayers for you and your family!!!!! Keep the Faith!!!

I have 2 brothers and 2 sisters. My sisters were of great help during the time Mom was sick. But my brothers were another story. My older brother said when Mom got sick if I need anything call. So of course when I was getting care giver burnout I called and asked for help. He had a very lame excuse for not coming. He started not answering the phone I always got answering machine. My brother was an alcholic when my Dad was sick. He made excuses and promised my Dad so many times and diappointed my Dad. He would call me from bar and give excuses. He doesn't drink anymore but I guess he still have those behaviors. He promised me and I take promises very seriously!! Especially under the circumstances. My younger brother Helped when he could . His life is so messed up. He too is a drinker. The last month he went out of his way to help when he could. I just have this anger towards my older brother. I have not talked to him since the funeral and even then it was very limited. He lives 5 minutes from my home and he never contacts me. I don't know what i expected after what we went through with Dad. My aunt made cookies for us at christmas and I didn't give them to him. I ate them!!! I guess that was probably immature on my part, but I just can't get past this anger! Any thoughts or suggestions would be appreciated.

sunstreet, thank you for your reply on crying. I very much appreciate the time you took to post. I will cry when i need too!! We are all different! Can't compare my feelings with someone elses. That is why God made us so unique! Some stronger some weaker! I believe and have faith. When Mom was sick I found my way back to my Christian upbringing. So something good did come out of Mom's death. Thank you so much and God Bless!!!

Bondie hi I am so sorry to hear of your Daughter's illness. I have only 1 Daughter of my own and I just couln't imagine her getting that ill. So as one Mom to another I feel for you and your Daughter! I was a caregiver for my Mom for 2 years nd just lost her inseptember 2010. Caregiving is exasting! Emotionaly and physical, mentally!!! Do you have some one to help you once in awhile. I had hospice for Mom witch was a great help! Tell you yhe truth I couldn't have done it without them! They not only helped with Mom the helped all of us. When I was 18 my best friend died from cancer after 5 years of hell! I hope that God will be with you and your Daughter! Cherish the time you have and know your Daughter loves you for taking such good care of her. I will add you to my prayer list that agod won't let her suffer much longer! I'm sending you both Hugs!! Leave to the Lord and all your prayers will be answered! Keep the faith!!

I don't think that it's out of line. As time goes by you think that no body rembers their loss. I think a card with a simple message would probaly be appreciated! Some times they don't want to talk because it brings up all those old emotions! I would give it a try and put your current phone number in it or email address so he knows he has that option to get in touch with you. You know it's the birthdays, holidays, anniversary of their loved ones death. These are the hardest! Maybe he will call. You could try then to get him to talk about good things from past. I think men just hold in more of thier emotions than us women do!! You give that a try and let me know how it goes. Goodluck!!!

When my Mom found out she had lung cancer I thought, Wow!!! they can cure you so much had changed since 1988 when my Dad had same cancer. But it was advanced!!! I always told my Mom yhat God was sending her and I on another journey together!!!! For her it certainly was a journey!! 2 years and many doctor appointments, radiation, chemo,and Blood infection, trips to ER. There was nothing more they could do. So she looked at me and said no more chemo!!! I want to live the time I have left not sick everyday. I want to see my children and grandchildren and great grand-children! She just wanted to savor every moment she had with us!!! So life went on until it could no more. She was such an inspiration to me! So strong, loving, there for us even if she was having a bad day!! So the day came when we said good-bye and I love you for the last time!!! I know God has welcomed her into his kingdom!! Our journey together had ended, but both of us were going to start new journeys!!! It's just parting of ways for awhile til we meet again in God's glorius kingdom!!! I know she is with me, but i miss her hugs, her smell, our conversations!!!!! Well Mom keep a journal of your journeys so someday you can share them with me!!!! Her spirit will forever live on in us!!!!

It has been months since Mom died and I have not been able to cry. I'm not sure if it's because I was her caregiver and I just had more time to prepare for her death? 2 years was a long time to prepare my self emotionally and mentally! I have flash backs to the last month of her life. You know I hear it in my head. Mom died at home and I never went into see her that last day. When I went in to see her after she passed Mom just looked so peaceful!!! I had no tears then or during funeral or since then. Do you think that that's strange? My siblings cry but not me.