I know that I will find it in my heart to adopt another dog someday. I adopted Mimi from the Alachua County Humane Society after hearing about her on a local radio station (every Wednesday KTK features a dog from a local shelter on Wet Nosed Wednesday). My 2 cats came from rescue groups as well. Every time I would bring our other even smaller dog, a Chihuahua (we found him in a parking lot), to a dog park that did not have a small dog area and he would get chased and the big dog owners did not understand my concern about him. Many big dog owners think their dogs are completely incapable of cruelty. I never once in a million years that Mimi would die like this. I wanted her to grow old with me.
Thank you so much for your kind words. Once my heart digs out of this dark pit and my beautiful memories of her replace the vision of her death I know I will be okay.