CJ,
Thanks so much for your reply. One thing is for sure. I have learned my lesson. I will NEVER leave a choke collar on any of my dogs for even a second. I just hate that it had to be such a hard lesson to learn.
I am trying so hard to work through the guilt, but between that and my horrible grief, I just can't seem to get with the program. I know it is very early in the process, but right now at least, I can't imagine it feeling better.. ever....
I am going thru the motions of my day... trying to keep life as normal as I can for my other dogs, so that they aren't totally confused. The first day, my Lab Ella, who was the other dog involved, was walking around crying all day. Tut, who is also Poochie's son, has been his constant companion for his whole life. Neither one of them is eating well, they won't leave my side, and they seem stressed. No doubt alot of that is because of my stress level which is through the roof. I cry all the time... and not just wimper cry, but wail cry... I feel like my whole spirit is grieving. I don't do that too often, so they are not used to it. Also, Ella, who just turned two, used to constantly play with her brothers, and now she hasn't touched her toys or wanted to play with Tut at all. I know it was horrible for her too.. she was scared and didn't understand what was going on. I know she didn't mean to do that. She is just a big goof who loves to play.
Anyway, I am rattling now. But I need to find a way to work through this, but at this point, I have no clue what to do.