Hello - I'm new to this site. This is my first post. I'm so sorry about your mother, Tina. My mother died on January 14, 2011. I lived with her and took care of her in Camarillo, California. In April, I had to begin moving all my stuff, and her stuff, to Arizona, to live with my sister. Very big deal! But, I'm here now, pretty much. Been going to a lot of grief support groups, while at the same time, learning the lay of the land. They have a lot of groups all over the "valley," as they call it here. And I can't believe how huge this "valley" is. But it's been really helpful to go and just be there with other people who understand what I'm going through, to hear their stories, and to tell mine. I just decided to check their website out too, because last week there were no groups I could go to. Plus, some are pretty far away, and if they're at night, I don't like to go out if there's gonna be a lightening or dust storm. There's a LOT of weather going on here that I'm not used to. Give me earthquakes any time! Those I can handle! But Lightening storms, no thank you! Those scare me a lot. Anyway, I feel sad a lot, and sometimes it appears out of nowhere, especially when I was babysitting my great-niece a week or so ago, and she looked at me, out of the blue, and said, "where's your mom?" (she's two years, and 8 months). All I could do, barely, as it just caught me by surprise, and I could barely speak, was say, with tears in my voice, "she died ... she died." And my great-niece just kept saying, "what's wrong? what's wrong?" The feeling just overcame me, and somehow I came out with my answer, but Wow. Anyway, I wish you good thoughts, and take good care of yourself!
