Dear Amz,
I lost my father when I was 17 and its been almost three years now. It was hard for me to figure out where I was during the grieving process. I felt I lived in denial for a whole year. Sometimes its hard to really understand your emotions, I would get angry or cry over the littlest things. It helps to talk to someone but you can also practice breathing techniques to help ease your stress and grief. Everyone deals with grief differently and its different when you lose someone so young. There is no set time for the process as well you may live in certain stages longer and some of them you may hardly experience. I found that at least talking to someone helped me get my feelings out and put things in perspective.