OMG! I could have written this! This is EXACTLY me, and how I am feeling. I'm feeling so lost and disconnected. I just lost my mom on July 7th, 2012. So it's still fresh and hurts more than anything right now. My emotions have been getting the best of me lately. I've snapped at my husband on multiple occasions, I don't want my husband touching me. I go hot to cold with my husband and my two children. (2 months old and 23 months old). I go from wanting to love on them, and never let them go, overfilled with saddness, to so annoying because everyone needs me, wants to be on me, etc.....
Like you, my mother is the ONLY one that I could talk to about EVERYTHING, without judgement, and she never brought things up again. She was the only one that loved me unconditionally, and would be there for me in an instant. she is the only one that got me, entirely. Knew what I was going to say before I said it, knew when I needed her, before I knew I needed her. I just feel so lost without her. I miss talking to her everyday, and I miss our adventures. I miss her loving on her grandbabies. I just miss her so SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!
