I lost my only sister on Oct. 24, 2012. She suffered greatly due to lung cancer and other disturbing events that led to her passing. I was not able to say goodbye and other things things that I needed to tell her. I can't delete her phone number from my cell phone yet, but I can say that it has gotten easier. I was crying every day for a month and then I stopped. Now, I cry on and off, but I can focus on other things in my life. I have turned to the Church to find answers to troubling questions and thoughts and it was helpful. I continue to turn to the Church now since this painful event and do find solace in having an organization to turn to.
Although, I yet have to find an answer to the question, How do I live my life without her in it? I know that I just don't want to exist, My life is not my own now, I live for her and I and I carry her heart and memory with me wherever I go. As I go forward living for her and I now, I have to make sure I'm present-minded to truly experience life. I also have to approach others with kindness the way she did when she was alive. That's the purpose of my life.
To those that have lost the only sibling, I feel your pain - you are not alone. Know that this painful event will become part of your larger past and it will get easier. I am sorry for your loss.
