I know exactly how you feel.I lost my husband a little over two years ago,and I have lost my spirit and my ambition. I look at other couples,and know I will never have that again. We never had children,and we were in the midst of moving to a very rural town. A year after he died I moved here on my own because we sold our other home. There are not even 100 people in the town I live in. I am by myself most the time. I finally found a job a week ago.I try to be pleasant around other people,but inside it really hurts.My life will never be normal again.This is a new normal,and I don't really like it. If it weren't for my dog,I would have lost it.I don't know if I should stay or go.It snows like crazy here,and last winter was very hard for me to run tractors and snowblowers. Still trying to teach the dog to shovel. I get angry sometimes because my life is so hard now alone. He was fine one day,and died six weeks later of kidney cancer.He was my best friend,and I just miss him terribly.I guess I just have to keep being strong,but it's tough to pretend all the time..Hope things get better for you!...
