So I just joined this site per a suggestion of a mailed brochure that was about dealing with loss from a hospice place in Arizona. My mother passed away from breast cancer in January of this year. This was something that we had both seen coming, but couldn't have possibly anticipated the process, effects, and definitely couldn't have felt more unprepared even though I was "prepared".
Im 28, and currently live alone. Sometimes the person I am seeing comes and stays with me for a few days. I don't really know what to say. It is a day by day process for me in terms of greiving, and lately, I have started to feel pretty low about it. I decided to attempt to be proactive and work towards healing, rather than get caught up in negative emotions and letting that decide how my day will end up.
When I read the description to this forum, many of those things sounded familiar to me. I rarely am aware of what day it is and constantly forget small things that normally I would never have trouble remembering. When I attended the funeral, I stayed at a Holiday Inn. A woman I talked to while smoking a cigarette told me to pursue bereavement support and groups so this is my attempt at doing so.
I feel like my grief and sadness is effecting relationships in my life and that I am a burden to most people. I will see my therapist on thursday and have just been trying to make it through the week.
