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It was lovely to read everyone's reply's and how supportive everyone is. My name is Teresa. I didn't know whether I was going to write another post but I feel compelled as everyone seems so lovely. These situations where I have to open myself up to people has been challenging, I feel very vulnerable in situations like these. It's like I have lost my confidence to interact with people. The only place I feel safe is at home and at work. I bit about Shane, I may cry as I am writing this, he was a happy, funny, gentle man. He made me laugh every day which I miss terribly. Yes I'm crying! Trying to console myself so I can type. His family has said he was the happiest when he met me and I gave him something that no one else has ever done, acceptance of him. And he gave me the same, acceptance just as I was. I loved him dearly, crying again. I know there are millions of people around the would going through tragedy and they have survived! Just want the pain and sadness to end and for me to be happy again Teresa

Hello all, I am new to this site. I have been trying to find a website like this in Australia but with no success, I am hoping the time difference doesn't make it difficult to interact with people on this site in the same situation as me. My husband Shane passed away suddenly on the 20th May, he was 43. We were married for 6 years, not long enough. I found him on the couch when I arrived home from work, shocking night. I can still feel that night. He was so cold, 000 asked me to try and revive him but he was gone and for quite some time, they estimate from about 8.30 that morning. That night is like a blur, it's like it wasn't me going through that. First the paramedics, then the police, then the coroner. All in our home, it was a nightmare. I remember saying the most stupid things to the police, things like "you poor things, I can't believe this is your job, how can you do this". After all the commotion was over, about 9pm. Then his family arrived, all the sadness was just horrific. I remember saying to my sister I can't stand all the sadness. We said goodbye on the 2nd June. It was a long time, the coroner took a while to release Shane's body. Still don't know cause of death, they are still waiting for test results. His GP things it may have been a heart attack. Hopefully I should find out soon. I am seeing a counsellor every fortnight which helps. She asked me to try and find a forum, she thinks it will help if I find a good one. I am hoping this is a good one. Still seems very raw when I walk into a room at home for a split second I think I will find Shane, but then that feeling goes and I know he is gone, I miss him terribly. We have 2 dogs which have been great comfort , but they don't talk back! Trying to live day to day at the moment, each day is different and a new emotion.