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Andre, so very sorry for your loss and your love for your Margaret sounds special and deep and your words are a great honor of her. She was a beautiful lady and your life together sounds like it was bliss. Being so new to this myself I don't always know what to say, because it hurts and we do feel so lost. I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you.

Thank you everyone! Thank you for sharing with me and for the welcome to a safe place. Kevin it is hard, being together 24/7 with our love and then, alone, thinking of you. Being a caretaker to our love becomes so much of who we are. There is a hole in our heart. Very sorry for each of us here we have to go through this. But glad to have found here. I showed our dogs in a dog show here a couple weeks ago, it was our favorite show and I knew he would have wanted me to do it, but it was much more emotional than I even imagined. I still got ribbons, but my heart was not in it. I did have moments of fun with all the attention my boys get and I have no doubt he wanted me to keep on, but somedays I wonder how I can, but giving up is not an option so finding my way is what I must do! But difficult journey for sure.

I just joined and wanted to introduce myself. I am Betsy, 49, from Houston, TX. I lost my hubby of over 20 years on May 24, 2015. He was not only my hubby, but my bestfriend, we were a great team, he was my world. He had a medical procedure go wrong back in July 2010. Spent 2 1/2 years in the hospital, lost a leg, kidney failure, etc. But he had overcome it all, despite the odds. Then he had been home for 2 1/2 years, we were together 24/7, he always had a never quit, positive attitude, he was an inspiration. I had accepted the best you can, our new normal, and the thought of losing him was long gone. Then it all happened so fast, went into hospital on May 10, 2015 and was removed from life support on May 24, 2015. He was concious and we had a good bye. As we all know, my world shattered. I dont have any family here and really no friends. Joined a grief support group that meets twice a month and go to a therapist as I can afford to. Except for a neighbor friend I have been alone since the day after he died. And thankful for my furry children, 2 Saint Bernards and 4 cats, they are great therapy. But the grief can be all consuming and the lonliness awful. He didn't want a service, rather a celebration of life, I have not done yet and the way friends have run from the situation may just do a lunch with his family when they can come. At 9 weeks in the emotions have been all over the place. I have already started going through all his things, donated some of his medical equipment and I know, for me, this will help in the process. I know for sure as we talked, he wanted me to keep on, to find happiness again, and to take care of our beloved fur kids. Haven't worked outside the home in 13 years, except for dog training which I did just as I could, but will have to look into a job sooner rather than later. And just so much to do and he was the calm one, now to handle so much on my own and learn calm...if I can! Hole in my heart is so big, I know he is still with me and will always be in my heart. Thanks for reading, looking forward to getting to know everyone and to have a safe place with understanding ears.