Muggins

Your words are very kind, thank you, it really does mean a lot. Have been trying to keep extra busy, so not spending soo much time home.. yoga classes have been a life saver, I do recommend that to anyone who is having trouble clearing their head, even if it's only for an hour. I don't know if any of you find the change of season makes your loss a little tougher? Now that fall is coming, mornings a bit cooler, leaves starting to change, I'm missing her so much still, and it hurts that the seasons are changing, it's almost like time should stand still for a while..

so i ran the vacuum cleaner across the floors today, no more fur balls. What i used to curse, today i wish there were going to be more. The spots where she had coughed up blood i hover over.. will this crushing feeling ever go away.. just when i think i can get stronger, bam..in my head, i know the life expectancy of a pet is not as long as we want, if only my heart could accept it to

I thank each and every one of you, it sure is a challenge to think about the tomorrows without her.. just trying for today, my husband and I don't have any children, she was our baby for 12 yrs.

I have been looking for a support site for a few days now, stumbled across this one.. it seems as though i'm stuck in my grief, can't get passed losing my angel 2 weeks ago. Samara was an absolute gift, who had such personality, humor and tons of kisses. She was a Boxer\ Sheltie mix. She was diagnosed 2 yrs ago with a mass in her lung attached to her heart, we were told she only had weeks left to breathe on her own.. for 2 yrs we never knew if this was the day.. I know it "should" be a comfort that we gained the extra time with her.. it's not. The sadness i have takes the air out of my lungs, making it hard to catch my breath, I see her everywhere, in all of the mundane tasks I do. My main regret is the day we took her to emergency, she was laboured breathing, panting, wouldn't drink or eat.. I seriously thought they could do a quick fix with meds to give her more time and comfort.. it didn't turn out that way, her x ray showed one lung wasn't working at all and her other lung only had a quarter of air left in it.. she was given a needle to calm her, and she was asleep before we had a chance to tell her we were sorry, and what was happening. She has always been soo afraid of the vets, it shatters me that the last place she went to was the one spot that caused her the most anxiety, and we were left to bring her home wrapped in a blanket.