TomP89

Hello everyone, I thought I'd drop by here to post something new as today, September 2nd, is the first year anniversary of the passing of my Grandad, who I lost to cancer last year. I can't believe that it's a year already, it only seems like yesterday that I saw him for the last time before he went into a hospice. Today has been very difficult for me. He was like a father to me and I really feel like he was the only one who understood me as a person. I miss him so much. But I know that he is now in a better place and he is not in pain or suffering anymore. He fought such a brave battle for 3 years and I take so much courage and positivity from how brave a man he was. I never knew people could show such strength and keep their sense of humour in the face of so much pain. It might be a year today, but in my heart there is no time and my lovely, gentle, quiet Grandad is always alive to me.

Hello everyone It's been a little while since I posted anything and the last few months have been hectic in both good and bad ways. It's 10 months today since I lost my dearly loved Grandad to cancer and I still think about him every single day even if it's in very small subtle ways. I also feel him around me all the time and several times there have been visits and signs from him to tell me he is with me and walking at my side. In fact one of those little signs happened today exactly 10 months since his passing when I caught a very brief but very strong smell of him, of how he used to smell to me as a little kid, the smell of his clothes and his house. He was sitting with me as I ate my evening meal and I said hello to him in my own way internally. I miss him every day and some days are harder than others but knowing that he comes to see me and leaves me signs of his continued presence in my life is helping to get me through every day.

Hello everyone It's been about six months now since I lost my Grandad to cancer. I still miss him very much and I think about him every day. I had been thinking about going to see a medium for some time but I was both nervous and skeptical about it. I finally had a reading done yesterday and I'm so glad I did it. It was one of the loveliest experiences I've ever had. I took several items and photos related to Grandad and the lady was able to describe him to a tee. He was so eager to chat to me that the medium didn't even have time to explain how the reading works! He came through instantly and must have had lots of things he needed to say to me. He did ask me not to tell my Nana about the session as it would frighten her to death which I've promised not to do. It was wonderful to hear from him again even if it wasn't visual or hearing his voice. I just knew straight away it was my Grandad. He told me several things I didn't know and which I've taken on board and will keep safely between Grandad and I. I had so many questions to ask but there wasn't enough time so I just asked if he was at peace and pain free. He assured me he is and that his passing was painless and peaceful. I have many other questions to ask Grandad so I may go and have another reading again sometime soon. For now though I'm just happy that he is happy and I know that he's definitely with me everywhere I go.

It's been 3 months now since I lost my dear Grandad to whom I was very close. He lost his battle with cancer on September 2nd. Although I still miss his so much, every now and then I get little signs that he is here with me and that is very comforting to know that his love surrounds me wherever I am. I had one such experience today. I decided to take a walk along the seafront in the town where I live. The pier was virtually empty and nobody was with me. For about a second I felt something brush past my shoulder almost like someone laying a hand on my shoulder. Then very briefly I got a strong smell of Grandad, the smell of his clothes and his aftershave that I remember from childhood. It was a beautiful sensation and I felt instant peace and warmth. It's great to know he is still there with me and it was lovely that he joined me for my walk by the sea. A sign to let me know he is fine and happy and that I don't have to be sad anymore.

I lost my Grandad 7 weeks ago after a 3 year battle with cancer. I thought I was doing ok but I'm not. His passing has begun to really hit me now. It's very sudden.and almost like a wall falling down upon me. A light has gone out of my life and a big part of me is missing that I cannot replace. I feel like I have lost not only my Grandad but a very dear trend. I think about him every single day. I miss him so much. I have had thoughts lately of just going, just leaving this god forsaken world. I just want to be with him. I yearn to see him, to see his wonderful smile and hear his gentle voice again. I just want to be with Grandad. I feel utterly hopeless and alone.

Hello everyone I had a wonderful experience which I must share with you all to show you that those who have passed on from this world are at peace. I lost my Grandad on September 2nd after a three year battle with cancer. I was knocked back quite a lot by his loss and I really did question why my lovely, gentle Grandad was taken from me. I had heard about the spirits of loved ones visiting those left behind in dreams but I wasn't sure how much of it I really believed. Until today. Last night I had the most wonderful dream. It was very brief, probably no more than a few seconds at most, but it was very vivid and unforgettable. In it, I saw Grandad sat at the head of a big table with my Nan and many other family members. The sign that I know it was really Grandad was the fact that other family members who have passed away were also sitting at the same table. Grandad was happy and smiled the whole time. He looked just like he did before his cancer overtook his body. He didn't say much but I told him I love him and he hugged me very close then he sent me on my way again. As I turned back to take one last look, I saw Grandad still smiling and waving at me. Then I woke up and realised that today is exactly 3 weeks since he passed away. When i opened the curtains the sun was shining and it's a beautiful day here. Also, another sign that I know it was really Grandad is that I have a big photo frame in my room with about ten photos in it. One of them shows Grandad and that particular photo is the only one in the frame that has fallen down out of place. There are so many coincidences involving my Grandad to not make my dream real. I am so happy that he came to me and it was wonderful to see him happy and healthy again. Best of all is knowing that he is now at peace and not suffering anymore. I hope my experience gives everyone hope and reassurance that those you love dearly have now found peace and an end to their pain. I hope this can help in some way however small towards healing your own pain from your loss. It has definitely helped me alot and I'm not worried or sad or lonely anymore now that I know my Grandad is absolutely fine.

Thank you so much for both of your lovely answers. This is my first experience of losing someone I dearly loved and it is ever so strange. It is unlike anything I have been through before and I keep thinking I will wake up one day soon and it will have all been a bad dream and that my dear Grandad will be back with me again and in the best of health. I know this isn't going to happen. I just can't picture my life without Grandad in it physically. I know people mean well when they say sorry or try to advise me how I can do things to help alleviate things or forget it but I just feel like I'm being pushed to do things that I don't yet feel ready to do. It is still way too early and I just wish the people around me would realise this and give me time and space. I know it's their way of showing they're concerned and that they care about me but right now it's intrusive and I've always been a very private person when it comes to sensitive family matters.

Hello everyone, I'm new here and felt I wanted to share my story. I lost my Grandad to cancer on September 2nd and it's been so very hard over the last two weeks. I was very close to him and I miss his terribly. His death was expected as he had been suffering for three years and he had gone downhill very quickly in the weeks before he died. Still it was a shock and I'm really not coping very well at all. I've been having so many mixed emotions ranging from complete helplessness to the deepest sadness I've ever felt in my whole life to anger to intense feelings of guilt that I couldn't help him and wasn't able to be there at the very end to say goodbye. Despite the fact that I have some wonderful friends and family around me who have all expressed concern and sympathy, I feel so alone that it's sometimes unbearable. I feel an intense longing for Grandad to be able to spend just one more day with him. I sometimes think that all I want is to just go to him and be near him again. I've tried to put things to the back of my mind but sooner or later they resurface and right now I'm having more bad days than good ones. I've also taken some friends advice and tried going back to work - it hasn't helped, I did one day and then asked to be allowed more time off to grieve. I feel so lost and in limbo. Another thing is that my housemate is being incredibly inconsiderate and can't understand why I'm not over it yet. He's never been one for subtlety but the extent of his care and sympathy was basically a total of two days after Grandad died. It makes me so angry how inconsiderate and selfish he is being. It's making me feel so much worse and has really pulled me down the last few days. He had the nerve to ask me to go back to work to get money so that I can pay off some bits I owe him. I find this really selfish that he can even consider money issues at this time. It really hurt me and I feel so isolated and guilty. I feel like such a bad person because now I have money worries looming over my head on top of my grief for Grandad. All I wish for right now is some peace, space and consideration and to be given as much time as I need to grieve fully. It seems even the death of a loved one doesn't stop people from thinking about themselves!