My mum was diagnosed with terminal cancer in June. She is 57. I am the oldest and had done all I can I have organised funeral, where my dads going to live the list goes on. I have written a good bye letter to her telling her I love you. I have two problems: my mum is a very ungrateful person. I have organised a fund so we can go on a holiday. Due to lack of funds the holiday can only be two days, she wants 7. She said doesn't it matter what I want. I was so angry. Second problem I feel really sick. I feel sick, I just want to spew, it's heavy feeling on my chest. I just want this to end. The im questioning life. I Have lost the spark and purpose. I have never felt so alone.
