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I don't know why I didnt...this eats at me every second of the day. People laugh at me for being so upset over a "cat" but she was my baby. I'm sorry it's eating me alive and I can't stop thinking about it

Thank you, I'm having a hard time dealing with this. I never imagined it would hurt this bad and knowing it could have been prevented. I have always checked to make sure she wasn't in there because she loved to snuggle and sleep under blankets and here recently the tree skirt of our Christmas tree. But for some reason I just didn't yesterday and I don't know why. It has been eating me alive and I just can't seem to let it go. I never knew how much I truly loved my sweet girl and just how much she meaned to me.

This happened just earlier this morning. I am beyond heartbroken and sickened by this...and it was my fault. I lost my sweet Rosetta who was only 6 months old by not checking the dryer even when I heard the thumping because I had just thrown in a large pile of wet soaking towels only thinking it was the weight of the towels possibly bundled together and then 15 minutes later it struck me and I went running to the dryer. I found her shaking with eyes rolling in the back of her head and bleeding. I have never experienced something so horrid in my life and yet when I speak to others about it I get laughed at because to them it was just a "cat." I went ahead and buried her a few hours later. I kept hoping she was still alive but it was done. I have never been one to get attached things, animals or people for this reason and even though it was only 6 months she was my beloved baby. I am hurting so much mainly for the fact that I didn't bother to double check the dryer and that to me she was beyond perfect in her own little way. How do you get pass this? It is gut wrenching for me