November 30, 2015 my sweet baby boy went to heaven. It's now January 7, 2016 and the pain just doesn't go away. I miss him so much. I'm finding it so hard to be strong for my husband and my 2 1/2 year old son. I never thought the night of 11/29/15 would be my last night holding him, kissing him, feeding him, and telling him how much I love him. The only time my husband and I don't think about that night is when we're sleeping but I do have dreams about that night and everything we went through both physically and emotionally. I wish I could just bring him back to me. Colton showed me that loving two sons is so special. My heart breaks everyday. Colton would have turned 8 months old on January 4, 2016. I often wonder what he would be doing now.... Crawling? Saying his first words? What new foods I would have introduced to him.... Life is different now. I haven't found a coping solution. I just stare at his pictures. I love that little angel so much ?
