Thanks everybody for your kind words. I need to sell this house. It is way too big for me and I just can't take care of the pool and the yard and everything. It's a beautiful house but not really one I would have picked. It was definitely Joe's house and now he's not here. I came home yesterday and my realtor had come in and moved a bunch of stuff around and took down a bunch of my pictures and put up some of her own stuff. The house looks much better and not so cluttered but it doesn't feel like home. I totally broke down. It is something I have to do though. I can't live here without him. I keep seeing him coming down the stairs or sitting by the pool. It's killing me. My friends say I need some help. I'm actually afraid of losing my job. I'm cranky and they all say I need to "come back." Sometimes I feel like it's just not worth it anymore. I keep thinking I"m making a mistake about selling the house but I already put $10,000 down on the new place. I know it's the right thing to do. Deb