Potterhead

I'm so sorry for your loss and I feel like I can relate to so much of what you said. I lost my mother one year ago this month. It has been devastating for me. At about the six-month mark I had completely lost my will to live. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before, but I somehow managed to pull myself out of it. I lost my dad 14 years ago and I'm an only child, so losing my mother, my "final" parent really left me feeling alone, even though I have a husband and daughter. I'm 47 and I still feel cheated that I lost her. My daughter was 10 years old when she died and my mom is missing so much. It hurts. My dad died three years before she was born, so I never got to share her with him. I think the only thing I can share with you that helps me is I tell myself every day how much my mom loved me and how she would want me to be happy. I know that's what I want for my daughter, and as wonderful as your mom sounds, I'm sure that's what she would want for you. It's still hard, though. The loss is so big and the pain is so intense and all-consuming. I hope you can find peace.