Thanks elb, I agree, the managing get better but the loss is still huge and hard! I get up every morning and look in my daughters room because there are still days where it feels like this has all been just one huge nightmare and maybe, just maybe she'll be in her bed. Its just so hard to see her friends all graduating from college, getting married, starting families. She'll never have that, we won't have that, her sister will never have an aunt for her children, or cousins on our side of the family. The loss is greater than just a hole, its a vortex of deep and vast nothingness!