Oh Finch,
I know exactly how you feel, it's agonizing to watch the ones we love, in pain. The only source of comfort I can offer right now is the assurance that Crystal is no longer suffering. No matter how hard it is to redirect your thoughts, you have to try and remember how at peace she is now. I had the pleasure of following a blog about a basketball player and his wife and praying for this couple who were going through a battle with cancer. Unfortunately, he passed away 2 years later, but his wife focused on the time they had together and how important it was for the people who followed to know he lived each day to its fullest. Despite the pain, she reminded us that he would have wanted us to remember the best, not the worst. Choose the best about Crystal, not the worst, and hold on to the fact that she knew you loved her.
