Yesterday was the fourth month since I lost my dad. He had a ruptured abdominal aneurysm. It was so sudden and no one had a chance to say goodbye. He was there one minute and gone the next. It's been a really hard four months. I've had crazy anxieties and am in physical pain almost always which makes me afraid of going out... I just want it to subside and it's frustrating. I feel like I'm unable to communicate with the rest of the family cause I feel like everyone's got their own emotions to deal with... what keeps me going is my Husband and kids.