Hello. I am Cari and I lost my husband Steve just December 17, 2003 in a train-car accident. I am so lost and feel so alone. He died instantly of massive head injuries and there was a closed casket so I wasn't even able to say good-bye. We were married 9 years. He had just turned 45 on the 12th of December and I am 43. Please help me for my heart aches so.......