I just went through the same thing with my soulmate and best I, Purrelli. There will never be a cat like him again, he was a once in a lifetime pet. I feel so much guilt because I messed my life up so bad I couldn't take care of him for 8 months. Whe I finally got a chance to bring him too me, he had cancer. I had only four to five days before I had to put him to sleep. He loved me so much. I loved him like I've never loved anything before. I am so grateful I had those few days. But I hate myself for letting myself get into such a mess that I missed almost a year of his life
