Jenmarianne96

Im sorry for all your loss. I am in grief today as well. Same thing happened to my little kitten Katya. I rescued her, along with her 2 other sisters almost a month ago. They were malnourished and the others were underdeveloped. The 2 others already died because of diarrhea and unknown causes. But Katya survived. She was a very sweet, strong and intelligent kitten. I already found an adopter but I decided to just keep her cuz I am already in love with her. She eats very well, plays with my dogs, puppies and other cat, and isnt aggressive with people. But last night, my world turned dark. I accidentally stepped on her while stepping out of the bathroom last night. I was holding too many stuff and didnt realized that she was there. She immediately lost her life after seizuring. Blood splattered in her face and on the floor. I am in shock as well as my younger brother whom I called across the living room as soon as i realized what is happening. We were devastated to see her suffer and to see her die. I cried hysterically moments after. I feel so guilty and I feel so stupid. My brother also feels traumatized. How could I do that to her. I am still not feeling better since last night as it is so fresh from my memory. I have experienced this loss last year from my beloved dog who escaped on her leash while we were walking to the bus stop after i fetched her from the vet. But this one is far worse because how can I be so careless. I pray for her little soul, I pray for her forgiveness and I pray that she's now in a much better place.

Hello, I am Jen. I am very sad right now. It has only been 2 hours since my rescue kitten passed away, and it is because of me. I was having some sort of sudden lbm earlier and went to the cr. I left my rescued kitten in my room because we were about to sleep. But my stomach suddenly felt bad so i ran and went to the cr. I fully knew she will go out and wander inside the house. But I didnt expect that she will be just right outside the cr as i step out. I was holding too many things as I step out and didnt notice her. I stepped out the cr with my weight on my foot and I was in shock when I felt somethin under it. I looked and saw her seizuring, blood splattered all over he face and the floor. I picked her up and tried to calm her but I knew that the damage was too heavy. I called my brother who was across the living room. He too was in shock. We both saw our kitten lost her life. Her pupils were dilated, she's seizuring but she's not making any sound. After she stopped moving, I was hysterical. I cried so hard and kissed her while saying sorry again and again. I loved her so much. I adopted her just a little over a month ago when I saw her on the street one night, she was with her 2 other sisters which died shortly because of weakness and underdevelopment. She approached and meowed at me as if she's asking for a shelter. I decided take them home that night. She was the sweetest and most thankful kitty ive ever seen. I hope she forgives me for I am careless. And I hope i forgive myself as well. She's now buried in our backyard. And I prayed for her. I will always pray for her forgiveness and I hope she's in a better place now.