I know I've seen other threads with this similar topic, but I wanted to get some advice on my specific situation.
My long term girlfriend of 8 years suddenly broke up with me a couple of weeks ago. Over the course of that time, we have broken up a couple of times, but we always ended finding our way back to each other. Her father got diagnosed with cancer about a year ago, and I was there with her every step of the way. I stood by her side when she needed me, and I even helped immensely when I realized he wasn't getting the proper care and the family was too distressed to speak up. I was glad to help and be there for her and there isn't a thing I would change about that. Back in March, he passed away in the hospital, and a few days later, we were both diagnosed with covid-19, so we were forced to quarantine at my house. I felt the pain of the loss as well. He saw me as a son in law and he was a second father to me. We ended up having bad cases and we were stuck there for 5 weeks, so on top of not being able to have a proper funeral and not being able to mourn with her family or even on her own, it was extremely rough on her. After finally going back home, I noticed she started to become more distant from me. She started to go back to work and said she was extremely stressed and depressed and needed space. I told her I completely understood and I would give her all the space and time she needed to do whatever she had to do to get through this difficult time. Ultimately, she thought that a break up was necessary because it wasn't fair for me to deal with her like this and that she just needed to be alone. While I understand why she needed the space, I'm still shocked and confused as to why she would cut out the one person that's always stuck by her side through thick and thin and all I wanted to do was help her through this. She said that she still may see a future with me and that maybe in a few months we could reconnect and try again, but she needs to do this first, otherwise she may resent me forever if she didn't.
We originally had plans to move out and get married within the next year or so, and for the longest time, she was completely on board with all of it. But she said once her father passed, she didn't think she was ready for that commitment anymore..at least not right now. The last time she got back together with me, she realized that she screwed up in the past, but she never wanted to risk losing me again...and here we are. I love this girl with all my heart. We have so much in common, work so well together and just lived life together... and I still want to marry her and have a family with her, but i'm not sure if I should wait? If I should be there for her if/when she calls? And I can't help but to think of the possibility that she may never call or she just may move on from me.
