I am sixteen years old and I lost my father suddenly in May. He was 54 and i dont know how he survived what i am going through , when he was 18 his mother died after a long battle with breast cancer and when he was 26 his father died of heart problems. its been two months and i feel unhappy all the time no food leaves me satisfied, and i have horrible anxiety all the time.Because of covid i never got my last moments with my father. My mother feels a huge guilt for not taking him to the hospital sooner but the doctors failed us they thought it was corona before even listening to the symptoms and i dont know how to comfort her. Im so worried im going to forget things about him. its overwelming how much we didnt do and i feel so sad all the time but its like i but a shell around the feelings and dont think about it . My brother argues with my mom all the time and it really stresses me out . im so confused ive never felt to alone
