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DebbieGD

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Best friend
  • Date of Death
    06/04/2020
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    NN

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  • Your gender
    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    Barstow ca

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  1. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Lexi, hi I hope your getting my messages, I'm not tech savvy so.. I'm really sorry about Lexi I know how devastating that is. Life can be so good and one day in an instant,gone... And we are forever changed, our hearts are scared for life, the good life is past us now,( this is my take) and now we go through it begrudgingly. I do anyway. I was raised a pentacost, granny my Sunday school teacher my grandpa's the preacher,we lived in the churches house. I thought God was always on my side. I have been so devastated in life, I know what finding your sweet Lexi like that is like lexilou, I really really do. I've tried to make sense of it all, and why God allows such things to happen. To make us stronger,don't know,to teach us a lesson don't know, to follow him don't know,what I do know is the world is ruled by darkness,and many follow. When we fall away or are pushed away form God,terrible things happen,and yet those who are strong in their faith terrible things happen. I get angry sometimes over matters I have no control of, bc I feel it's my fault,when down inside I know it isn't. The dark side knows it, but he is the great deceiver, We can-not under any circumstances let him become our father!, he is the father of lies. The component of evil in us and we all have it, is his deception. He deceived us in the garden, and it is that component of evil that is in us. Let the Lord shine upon you, trust in him with all your heart. I didn't mean to preach,just sometimes he hears our call. May you have a bright and shiny day, and good will be in your path..
  2. DebbieGD

    My heart

    I do,I feel like I will live in misery for the rest of my days.
  3. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Hello Lexilou, I hope your having a great day, I'm not as it greivous today. I am all alone and it's going to take some time getting used to.
  4. DebbieGD

    My heart

    I'm hurting so bad this morning, I miss her so much, the tears are streaming down my face,and I can't stop, how will I ever get over the loss? I don't think I can, she was my life, my heart, and my soul. I am so lonely without her.
  5. DebbieGD

    My heart

    TY Kayc, I'm grieving this morning, and trying to let it go, but it's so hard, I know she's in a better world, she has to be, as this world is collapsing around us, she is free and happy, I just miss her so much, I now have a very lonely existence, it will take some time getting used to.
  6. DebbieGD

    My heart

    It's been a little while, I'm doing better, the days are lonely, I haven't cried as much as of late, but today I'm missing her terribly, she gave me so many reasons to be happy,I'm still very sad, I miss not being a nuturer,as women go, I have no one to take care of,yes I have myself, I'm still not eating real well but at first it was like I had been fasting and not even knowing it,the Lord works in mysterious ways. I miss her so, yet for about the last 4-5 days seem to let up, and then I felt guilty because I hadn't missed her so much,just writing that lends guilt, I thought of her always but it was a terrible thing, my friend told me you just have to put it in another place when I told her how guilty I felt,perhaps that's what I had done. Thank you so much Marty for your place and time. I hope your having a Wonderful day. Best regards, Debbie
  7. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Thank you Marty
  8. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Yes Kayc he does, I'm so alone but I pray, and it helps. Hugs
  9. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Thank you...
  10. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Thank you Marty, you are so Dear, I'm hurting so bad Marty, I'm so deeply depressed over her loss checking out is only a flighting thought, but checking out is not an option. The Lord is with me, He knows my strengths and my weaknesses, he's helping me pull through this. I'm am so glad I found you..Thank you.❤️
  11. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Thank you Lexilou, hand in hand, and for being here for me, I'm not real tech savvy, on top of that I had to get another phone bc old one wouldn't hold a charge, now this new fangeled job, nightmare.....! When I find some relief I will go to Marty and see what I can or cannot do. Still yet it's hard to function being without her, she was my confidant, and best friend. I miss her so much. Have a merciful day!
  12. DebbieGD

    My heart

    I have this new phone and I can't get notifications. I'm in tears I'm so lost I'm scared.
  13. DebbieGD

    My heart

    Hi Lexilou I'm doing terrible, I'm so alone I miss her and it's breaking my heart I'm having panic attacks back to back I'm crying excessively, I don't think I can go on.
  14. No they aren't like that anymore, it's really sad.
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