Mmyloveforever

Hello Kayc,

I’m very sorry for your loss. I appreciate you for sharing that with me, i can only image, I’m so sorry. I wish we all didn’t had to go through this living nightmare. I hope you’re doing better. 
My grief is getting worse day by day, It has been 4 days since i held my beautiful Mimi. I’m trying to be strong but it isn’t easy, I’m still in so much pain, missing him so so much. 

I signed up for a support group, it help a bit and I’m doing daily hypnosis off the YouTube, its comforting...  a friend of mine sent me a poem and its so beautiful. It made my cry but gave me a bit hope. 

https://www.scrapbook.com/poems/doc/2907.html
 

My life has lost its meaning when my child, beautiful boy of mine no longer with me anymore. 
I loved him more than life itself. I miss him so so much and i cant stop crying in so much pain and regret. Why he had to go?! Whyyy I don’t understand. 

He was a beautiful, loving Miniature Pinscher, just turned 11 this march. He loved me soo much, always would stare into my eyes with his beautiful brown eyes and tell me how much I’m loved by him. We had such a special bond. We will meet again beautiful I know our spirits are together forever until we meet in person again. Very soon. 

16 hours ago, roseaimee said:

Hobo King was an Australian Terrier that looked like a plush toy come to life. Full of personality with an adventurous spirit. 

 

He was only 9. He had a seizure and I rushed him to the animal hospital. With Covid 19 I had to just drop him off. After spending one night, he was released and put on seizure medication.  The following week he had another seizure that lasted for nearly an hour. His seizure was not controlled by medication. He made it through the night. I took him to a neurologist the next morning to have a MRI in a different city. They diagnosed him with a tumor in his brain and told me he had 18 months. Then several hours after his diagnoses, I got the phone call recommending euthanasia. Due to Covid-19 they would only allow one person to be with him in his final moments. 

 

It was so sudden. I was not prepared to have to put him down. The hardest thing I have ever had to do was hold my baby while he died in my arms. I feel so guilty that I didn't look into his eyes as he took his last breath. I held him sobbing and told him I loved him. It was such a shock. 

 

He was the light of my life. He was my shadow. I would look around for him and he was always right behind me. He followed me since the day I found him. We would cuddle every night. He would curl up right next to me and I would wrap my arms around him. I called him my cuddle monkey. I struggled with depression. He could always tell when I was depressed. He would put his paws on my chest and put his nose by me ear and sniff. It would tickle and I could't help but laugh through tears. Since his passing, night time is the hardest. I can't stop sobbing. I miss him more than I can explain. That is why I am reaching out and telling his story.  

Hi Rose, 

I’m extremely sorry for your loss. I just lost my baby 2 days ago and i feel like my heart just broken in pieces. I cant stop crying and keep seeing his beautiful face. 
i feel your pain and you’re not alone. My baby had a seizure and died in my arms too. It was the most horrible, sad thing I’ve experienced. I just dont know how to go on with life.