Antoinette

I rescued another female pit named Luna. I hope this wil begin my healing process!

I'm ready for another. I always said I would give them the best life ever, let them go when it's time and go right back to saving another.

I had her cremated and they have me a patch of her fur. I've been sleeping with it. I haven't let my house and every bone and muscle in my body hurts. I do what I need to do as fast as I can such as feed the horses and cats but then right back in bed. I can't look at picture because the pain is too intense. 

I talk to her all day. I asked her to send me a buddy that needs to be saved and needs me just as I will need them. I can never picture my life without a dog.

I had Shelby for 8 years. I rescued her when she was 6. I loved her more than life and respected her just as much. I have a constant knot in my stomach. My son is 34 and he is just as devastated. If I had the money I would have cloned her. The pain is constant coupled with the previous losses of my job, dad and uncle in a short amount of time. I am sorry for your loss as well. I am grieving with you.

Her name was Shelby. She was perfect in every way and could do no wrong ever. I miss her smell and her in bed next to me doing paws up. 

I had to put my dog down on Monday. I had her to three vets but within days she lost all use of her back legs and was dragging herself around and having trouble breathing from either the pain, the exertion or the medication and crying. One of the vets prescribed her gabapentin. The morning after She took it her back paws curled up losing the She of her legs. She couldn't go to the bathroom on her own but she was eating the turkey and rice plush drinking. I couldn't t take seeing her like that so I made the decision to euthanize her. I've been sick to my stomach, second guessing myself. I just lost my job, my dad, my last uncle in the space of a month in Oct of 2019. I am lost without her and don't know how to handle her loss.