Erin, I relate so much to your story. I too just googled grief forums to try and find some type of comfort in this tragedy. My brother passed away 5-22-21. He was 21 when he died. His 22nd birthday was 6-19-21. I just turned 26, so he was only 4 years younger than me. My brother also was in a car accident and died on impact.
I have the same thoughts - was I a good sister? Did I do enough? I should have done more, I should have saw him more often. So many things I wish I could redo or have the chance to say.
I’d love to chat more. Ive found its so difficult finding others who understand the loss of a sibling, especially at our age and how young our brothers were when they passed.
I will pray for you and your brother.
-Jess